sob.

aye. anyways, i'm really starting to wonder.. what is wrong with guys in the world? they could just be normal and have at least the slightest bit of heart, but no! once you really feel as if you can trust them and such, then they just turn around and backstab you. well, not really. me and him broke up on wednesday. i was like "you are a pothead, it really does bother me even though i may say that it doesnt. and i'm not sure if i want a guy in my life that is like that" and he was like "oh, well i don't even want a girlfriend anyways." so what does he do after saying this? he asks out another girl. oh jeeez, that just made my day suck. flat out suck. he went for the goodie two shoes. i mean, of course i consider myself a generally good person, but this girl has never really kissed a guy. well she has.. but not KISSED. yes, i know, i was shocked too. this all happened after i got confirmed. my name is now emily marie anne nelson (: i mean, even though i'll most likely turn baptist, it was a good thing to get confirmed. it made my grandparents proud and they gave me lots of money. at the beginning of the week i started out with 0.00, now i have like 110 something? and by the end of next week it'll be 200 something. yayyy graduation. booo tom! tom in case you didn't know is just short for "time of the month" :P haa, gross. but hey, it is my blog, and if you don't like it, get over it (: gahh, i hate that. why am i in such a bitchy mood lately. personally i think i'm very stressed. that guy, tom, and all this family being here lately, i guess it's really gotten to me. this is my first time being alone tonight. yes, at 11:24. son of a bitch, i'm tired. i watched that movie tonight called "he's just not that into you" and i realized many things. although i've already thought those things it was just really eye opening and sweet to me. i love cute little movies that make me feel good about myself.. i really want him more as a friend. i'm not talking about my ex, i'm talking about some other dude. i've always felt this way about him. and now i'm realizing more than ever, i need to tell him. blehh, this will most likely be an epic fail, but honestly i do believe it will be worth it.


Ciao,
Emily