lame.

i saw HIM yesterday for the first time since he broke my heart. my heart hurts.
i miss being with him. my heart wants him back. i love him.
but i was with another guy trying to get over him when i saw him. i hadn't seen him in at least 3 months. i'm falling apart.
i need him.


i love you<3

hey.

i'm giving up. i said i would a month ago. but i'm weak. i miss talking to him. he was the sweetest and probably one of the best things that had ever happened to me. he was the only guy that i really ever "talked" to, without them saying something about having sex with me. i'm 14 years old. sex isn't something i look for in a relationship. i look for people that don't do that. but eventually you realize, that's all that guys want from you. i'm tired of trying to be taken over by some dick. i don't want to get hurt.
anyways. alex did this really lame thing today. it probably made my day. i got a text from emily saying "omg, alex got snakebites?" so i texted him saying "snakebites.. really? " i called them fake and whatnot, so he got pissed and told me to go up to his house so he could prove they were real. so i did. they were fucking paper clips. he's a dumbass. :] so i took a picture with my hoops in my mouth, to look all lame like him.
i got to hang out with my bestfriend this weekend (: i missed her!

time for homework and sleep.
joy



ciao,
emily

herrrow

ayyye. i know that i havent blogged in such a long time. i've just had really nothing to blog about lately. well. i guess a little TOO much to blog about. like 4 weeks ago, phillip decided he was done talking to me. that hurt me pretty bad. me and him.. sure. we never dated. but we "talked" and acted like we were dating for like 3 months. i miss it. i miss him. he is without a doubt the best kisser there is. i saw him sunday when i was crossing the road to the mall. me and andrea were walking. and he was in the car that let us pass. he put his head out the sunroof and screamed my name. it was pretty cute. lmfao. but that was the first thing he had tried to say to me since we stopped talking. his voice is like the sex. hahah! wooo! enough phillip. i'm done trying with him. what we had was special. he ruined it. when we were together and alone? it was magical. in front of people? he didnt know me. it was like he was so ashamed to be seen with me. i hated it. anyways. i kissed the first person since him on friday. it was nice. very nice. he's a pretty good kissser. but there wasnt sparks like with phillip. i need to just find a nice guy. and start a relationship. being single is nice. but i want to be in a real relationship again. its going to be pretty tough. because this weekend i was sick. i had a high fever and lots of like neck pain and shit. idk. it was awful. now i have fever blisters. lots of them. I DONT HAVE FUCKING HERPES, SO STOP SAYING THAT YOU FUCKING BITCH. haha. totally just throwing that out there. because i really hate walking in the halls and hearing some whore that i dont talk to whispering to some girl i've never met "OH MY GODDDDDD EMILY NELSON HAS HERPESSS. SHE GOT IT FROM JAKEEEEPIERCE!" i kissed jake. kay. doesnt mean he gave me herpes you bitch. its spirit week. i dont have much spirit for this godforsaken school.

go2sleep<3

ciao,
emily

love

you are the most amazing thing under the sun
you tore my life apart to the extremity
you made me feel desireless,
and without heart.
you made me feel without a doubt love.
i miss our love sweetheart. i miss you.
come and bring back your passionate romance
and silliness that made me fall ever so deep
i miss you. i want you. i need you.
come back to me.


(P.S. i will blog more tomorrow or something. i'm just super tired.)

passionate.

yesterday, i went to the movies with philllip. then we went to best buy and played rockbandd. afterwards we went to the mall. he kissed me. it was so passionate and wonderful. & damn, there were many to come, and more to happen in the future. i was his first kiss since march. he is the best kisser. ever. end of story. (: i can honestly tell you that i do love him. a whole lot. <3

my phone is really starting to frustrate (sp since school's been out) me. the 8 button hardly works when i want to text. sooo just to inform you, if we're texting and i don't include something that is on the 8 button, don't have a cow, it's not my fault. jusssaying.

today me and andrea went shopping for a long ass time. but i think i'm going to go again tomorrow with fanny, because i didnt spend my money, and i want more clothes :] tonight we had orientation. i'm kinda mad that i have two classes with the biggest douche bag ever, but fuck it. at least i have classes with some of my bestfriends tooo, so it's all good.


Ciao,
Emily

shit.

so lately, i don't know what's gotten into me.. my stress level has gone threw the roof. and it seems as if everyone is out to get me. i haven't gone a day without crying in Lord know's when. last night was amanda's party. suppppper fun. but afterwards. ugh. let's put it this way, i hate hate hate guys. they're stupid. immature. nonunderstanding. BASTARDS. who the fuck asks the girl he's "talking" to advice on another girl? no one! thats what i thought too. i hate how when someone says "i love you" they don't mean it. i've really started to scare myself.. i need a hug.. i need to know that somebody out there cares.

anyways. today was very fun. i went to wilson's creek with my momma, and kelsey. mommy slipped on a rock and now is in urgent care getting stiches. i laughed when she fell. then i saw blood pouring out and i cried. scary? yes.

Tonight i'm sleeping over at nicola's. then tomorrow i'm going to kelsey's for the night.

i honestly think something is wrong with me. i'm scared.

Ciao,
Emily

rap music and cleaning.

it gets the job done.

hola bitches(:
today was stupid. i got up around 11:30, at andrea's. sara came and got me arounddd 2. and i've been cleaning my damn house since then. i reallllly want to work out. i think i'm going to go tomorrow morning before i have to go get my schedule changed. yeahhh. i need to be in play production apparently ?haha. which i mean it's good. because acting is just something i love to do. lol :P i reallly don't see why i was the VP of drama club, because i'm really not that great. probably just because i've got friends, or something... there's only one more week left of summer. honestly, where'd it go? anyways. after that me and sara are going to akito. alex comes home! aunt amy and uncle tommy will be here! &&&&. party at amanda's. which i hope my mommma let's me go tooo :P
maybe i'lll add more to this shit laterrr

Ciao,
Emily

andrea = stalker.

heyyy yall, watch out. andrea taylor is a straight up stalker. she will tell you things that you are about to tell her? WHAT THE FUCK. it's like she reads my blog before it's even posted. how fucking messsed up and creepy is that? hahah. she eats, breathes, sleeeps CREEPSTER. just warning you (:

anywaysss. last night i stayed on the phone 5 hours straight with phillp curtis (: i also went to the mall with him and emily. GOD HE'S A SWEETHEART. i'm on the mac of book at andrea's because today we went downtown to the coffee shop to converse like intelligent young adults. ha. then we walked on the railroad tracks. we decided that we're going to walk on the railroad tracks when were drunk. fun shit? nnnYES. haha. we're watching an extremely goofy movie. i just decided to update you bitchesss.


i love youuu!<3

Ciao,
Emily

pontlessnesss(:

i've had a prettty darn good day. :] last night emily spent the night for probably the last time in a whileee/: i'm gonna miss her. soooo much. we went to bed around 5:30 am. woke up at 1ish. got readddy. ate. went to the malll with phillip<333 he's the bigggest sweetheart. grrr. :) i've been on the phone with him for 2 hours now. i love it.

hahaha. tomorrrow i think kelsey is coming over. and maybe andre tooo? idk.

sounds exciting. i miss my bestfriend.

Ciao,
Emily

i miss you blogspot. i miss you life.

bloggging makes you find alot of wrongs in your "right" life. i feel like i'm losing everyone in my life. yes, i've become closer with old aqautinces. but i miss my friends. i miss being able to have someone that is always there for me. i'm losing one of my closest friends. not by choice. but by force. fuck moving.. i love you emily, and i really will miss you. we shall chill before you leave. i hate how emotional i've become. i hate how i keep in how i feel. i hate how i have to go online and read someone's blog to see how they feel about me and our friendship. yes, that was aimed towards kelsey. i really miss my bestfriend. how? i haven't seen her in two weeks. we usually live together. i hate how people call me "preppy". i hate how i will never be comfortable in my own skin. i hate most of fucking all how i can blog about this shit, and i act like i'm fine cause i know people have it worse all around me.

anyways. i'm done with my hate shit. i really want just a hug. i got so many tonight from an amazing guy. that yes, i reallly do like. his friends are douche's. but who cares? his friends aren't him. he's about the cutest sweetest thing, and he likes me. :] tomorrow i think i get to see him again. hehe. fanny got home today. yayyyy frenchy. she got me a bunch of hello kitty stufff from china town. i want alexxx to come home >.< damn ohio! yesterday was my miracle cousin's birthday. thank God for life. she is my one true miracle that proved there is a God for me. yes, before i had doubts. is there a problem with that? i have no problem with somebody being agnostic, you have your opinions, i'll have mine. just don't try to change me, it simply will not work.

i hate how people think i've become someone different than myself.
i think i know who i am.


Ciao,
Emily

i suck at life.

helllo bloggers. :] sorry i haven't blogged in such a long time, i just really suck at life. sooo lately i've just been chilling. cause aye, it's summer(: i feel like a bitch though. yes. i'm happy that shit is over, but i don't know if i'm a bitch for loving that it is. a few mornings ago i woke up to my least favorite thing, DRAMA. then it stopped, then it came back. tonight i went downtown for friday night alive, as always. i went withh my parents and andrea, but we met up with kelseyyy and ramiro! i swear, i hardly know ramiro, and i love the fuck out of the kid already. :] HIS DOG IS THE CUTEST PUFF BALL I'VE EVER SEEEEN. andd my momma's friend's husband randomly picked me up and ran away with me in his arms like a creepsster! i didn't even know who the fuck he was at first! her other friend's husband just randomly said "how old is she? she's cute!" "she's going to be 14 on sunday" "THERE IS NO FUCKING WAY THAT GIRL IS 13!" hahha. my mom's friends creeep me out. and andrea. heheh.. i feel like such a whore. i really like this kid.. but. it seems as if he won't try enough to be with me. he "loves" me. and well, we've practically been together for months, so yes, i do love him too. but ugh. tonight i had to let my girly senses out and mess around with another dude. FUCK HORMONES. this dude is trying to say he really likes me, when we've met twice. he's probably the BIGGGEST horn dog ever. but, idk. i really really really like the sweet innocent type where kissing is a big cute deal. that's why i like phillip. and he likes me too. i want to be with him, i really do. but ugh. he either doesnt want to see me or doesn't like me. which isn't the case because he is always saying "when we date.. lalal" so i mean, obviously. all of my friends love him. he's perfect.. but he's at his dad's house, so i really haven't talked to him in two days. :( i love the kid. OMFG, I GOT A NEW BEDDDD 8) and when i was cleaning from under the old one, i found my old fucking diary. that this is like.. so old. from when boys had cooties. God, it was time for a new bed. it just sounded like someone was knocking on my window. but it is 2:16 am, so i doubt there was a knock.. i'm depressed. FML.

Ciao,
Emily

st. martin first three days (:

ayyye bloggers! so i'm most defffinitely in the carribean. you can tell just by looking out my window. i've been here since the twentieth, so, three days down, 11 more to go. i've never beenn on this long of a vacation. my family would never stay this long, i'm just here with fanny. the first day we got here i got to go to my first french grocery store. we swam in our poool at the house we're renting, ate with a bunch of frenchies, then we went to sleep. it gets dark here reallly early? and get's bright really early too. so i've been going to sleep around nine or ten then sleep until 8 or 9? that's really early for me.. :P ashamed? yes, but it's whatever. the next day we got up and went to the beach, then we had lunch, swamm, shopped. third day went to the dutch side of the island, got a litttle bit burnt, alot tan (: AND WENT PARASAILING. it was awesome. the view was amazing. i really like the island alot, but i miss hikory.


Ciao,
Emily

hurrrr

helllo loves<3 i got an epic new haircut yesterday, suppppa cute. and short. layers & bangs. whatta bamf? heheh. i leave SATURDAY. that's just too amazing to believe. i'm majorly excited. i think i'm going to do something with emily anderson and andre today. well that's what andre said? haha. :P i hope so, cause i think i'm about ready to get sick of fannny. she's too french. last night we walked up to lowes, and the cutest boy was there. he works there, his name is vince, and fannny just went on in french on the phone with her mom, and he was like... "wtfff?" lol! it was probably the most classic thing in the world. (: i reallly don't have all that much to say, so i'lll just write tomorrow or when i'm in st. marteen.

Ciao,
Emily

UP ALLLL NIGHT

i don't know why i set that as the title of this blog? i suppose it's because i'm listening to that song? ahha, anyways, let's catch you up on my life. wednesday i had my third anual campout (: it was prettty damn great. and i graduated jacobs fork. so now i'm a freshman at foard. heheh. my family hasn't been gone all week which minimizes what i am able to do. i've been invited to many things i couldn't go to in the past week cause my family's been here. >.<<<< i slept at kelsey's on friday. we went to the mall, and pissed off her mother. joyyy. but we had fun and watched transformers which was surprisingly really good. i'm really finding it hard to believe how great my social life is right now. i'm getting invited to things lleft and right. st marteen, florida, lousianna.. it's pretty great. and last night i was texting someone that was in a movie. and he was saying all this stuff of how he hasn't dated anyone in a while and he wanted me to go to a movie with him last night. but i had to do this thing for my aunt amy. she turned 40. then we played quarters. but it sucked, cause i used to really like this dude. and i hope i get to see him alot this summer and even more next year when i'mma freshman. cause i could see myself dating him. he's really sweet. yet crazy. and yesterday i was invited to lunch and crap with someone i used to like but confuses the shit out of me now. ANNNNNND my ex wants me back, although he has a girlfriend. AAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNND the guy that i actually like i've only met like twice, and i want to be able to see him more, but i doubt that could happen, so i'm thinking about giving up on that one. i don't know, guys have this amazing ability to confuse the fuck out of me. but i'm glad i'm not how i used to be. in 6th grade somebody who i'm not going to mention came up to me and said "i don't like you and no one ever will." what a fucking dick face. but, hey! i proved him wrong, now didn't i?? hahah. i want to show the world how i feel, but i'm afraid.


Ciao,
Emily

sob.

aye. anyways, i'm really starting to wonder.. what is wrong with guys in the world? they could just be normal and have at least the slightest bit of heart, but no! once you really feel as if you can trust them and such, then they just turn around and backstab you. well, not really. me and him broke up on wednesday. i was like "you are a pothead, it really does bother me even though i may say that it doesnt. and i'm not sure if i want a guy in my life that is like that" and he was like "oh, well i don't even want a girlfriend anyways." so what does he do after saying this? he asks out another girl. oh jeeez, that just made my day suck. flat out suck. he went for the goodie two shoes. i mean, of course i consider myself a generally good person, but this girl has never really kissed a guy. well she has.. but not KISSED. yes, i know, i was shocked too. this all happened after i got confirmed. my name is now emily marie anne nelson (: i mean, even though i'll most likely turn baptist, it was a good thing to get confirmed. it made my grandparents proud and they gave me lots of money. at the beginning of the week i started out with 0.00, now i have like 110 something? and by the end of next week it'll be 200 something. yayyy graduation. booo tom! tom in case you didn't know is just short for "time of the month" :P haa, gross. but hey, it is my blog, and if you don't like it, get over it (: gahh, i hate that. why am i in such a bitchy mood lately. personally i think i'm very stressed. that guy, tom, and all this family being here lately, i guess it's really gotten to me. this is my first time being alone tonight. yes, at 11:24. son of a bitch, i'm tired. i watched that movie tonight called "he's just not that into you" and i realized many things. although i've already thought those things it was just really eye opening and sweet to me. i love cute little movies that make me feel good about myself.. i really want him more as a friend. i'm not talking about my ex, i'm talking about some other dude. i've always felt this way about him. and now i'm realizing more than ever, i need to tell him. blehh, this will most likely be an epic fail, but honestly i do believe it will be worth it.


Ciao,
Emily

10 days till summer<3

ello my blog readers (: long time no see/talk/whatever you wannna call it. anyways, i've missed so much in writing in this thing. first thing first, austin asked me out yesterday, and i like him, so i think we all know what the answer to that question was. :P i don't know what i'm thinking, but lets just hope that there are no regrets in this boy. tomorrow is his birthday andddddd confirmation practice. my house is going to be totalllly crazy this week. my grandparents are coming tuesday, and staying till thursday morning. just for my confirmation, which should be kinda interesting, because i'll be helping my grandma with a broken foot. (that's her in the picture) uncle seany, aunt julie, sophie, hannah, josie, johnny, and molly are coming on friday. so i don't think i'll be able to make any special plans this weekend. ///: maybe austin can chill? but i'm not too sure. i'm sooo fucking ready for summer. ba, then my aunt amy, uncle tommy, and grandparents are coming for my graduation. grandma and grandpa are staying for like 5 days. sooo the beginning of my summer will basically be bland. but i do know for a fact that i'm having my third anual camp out with kelsey, andrea, and i don't know who else yet. but that should be super funnn. this week should be really boring at school. i bet we'll just chill and do no school work whatsoever, except for in mr. robbins' class! i'm soooo shocked that i actuallly passed my science EOG! and the rest of my eog's were aced. well, i know that i got a 4 on the math one, just like last year (: i gett my pappa's blood. but they haven't told us our scores on the reading one. but as long as i passed it, i'm coooll. cause i didn't last year, so they put me in this reading remediation class which was boring as fuck. but hey! i passed. i've cleaned allllll day long. no joke. but i'm starting to worry about my pooor little puppy. stewart, who is only 5, couldn't walk his usual... 2,3? mile walk today. we usually walk the neighborhood then walk to lowe's, but today he got to the top of the neighborhood, then pulled me down the hill. maybe he's getting old? maybe he's getting heiferish? maybe he had a bad night? but i don't really know, i love him <3 sooo thursday i had musical auditiions. which were pretty great, but i forgot the words to happy birthday. but i think i did pretty good when they asked me to sing amazing grace. (: liz, victoria, and fanny were my "little crowd" for the whole thing. but i reallly like foard. even though i got lost in it? baaaa. oh well! i got out of school around 2 on friday with kelsey and ashley (: which is good, because, i didn't want to be in there. so when me and kelsey got to her house, we pretty much just chilled and got ready to go downtown for the night. we got there, walked around, got hungry, and went to grouchos for some pretty beastly subs. after grouchos we shopped some then went to drips which is an amazing coffee shop, we got the ice coffee which was great the first few sips, then we got to the part that didn't get any vanilla and it was grosss. after that we watched a christian band play for a little bit, then shopped some more. and when we went to the movie theater, we ran into emily underwood! i absolutely love/miss that girl! ahha. [: we saw race to witch mountain, and this random little boy went running out in the middle of it with his hands in the air. i busted out laughing! it was great. yesterday me, sara, kelsey, and danielle went to the ymca to swimm. it was fun, we ran into shakil there (lol) and i got a little burnt/ a little tan (more burnt then tan). but whatever, i love swimming. then we got home, got showered, and went shopping for a few hours. after shopping, we went to el paso with my family, and shopped some more. that night we chilled with fanny, and when she went home and kelsey was asleep, i talked to austin for a lonnnnnnnng time. haha, then i woke up, went to walmart, and cleaned the house. now i'mma go read or something.



Ciao,
Emily<3

yo ho!

hiiii :] soo i have no idea really why i just put up that smiley face, because truth is, i feel like absolute shit. apparently people are spreading stuff about me. that definitely makes them NOT cool in my book. super immature actually. so how about if you're spreading shit about me, you just shut the hell up and we'll be okay. i know i made out with someone that i was not dating. who gives a shit? i've been praying for forgiveness for the past two days. and for some reason i cannot get the whole thing out of my head. i know it was wrong, but he liked me. and i kinda liked him. but now he doesn't like me because someone saw and they are telling like everyone. gee thanks to them. but it was only a kiss, so don't blow it out of proportions. i believe phillip, it's in the past, it's done, i can't change it, but i can learn from it. i love that kid, even though he's shooooooort. so i don't think i could ever date him, because i'm tallllllll. haha, well i'm monsterously tall compared to that shrimp. :] anyways, i had the eog today. for science. it sucked because mr. robbins doesn't teach us jack squattt. lol, he just goes on and onnn about the "procedure" who gives a shit about the procedure? i'm pretty sure we know how to fill in fucking bubbles. hahah, he's stupid. i just got a new/old picture on myspace. my self esteem has been too low lately to actually take one. maybe when i stop feeling this way i'll get a new new one. probably this weekend. i don't even get why i feel this bad... i just do. music makes me feel a tad better, those happy songs that arent about anything bad. idk, just.. try to talk to me about it, and chances are i'll talk. but i'm not about to just tell you everything about me in a public blog. hah, i was supposed to go swimming with fanny and anthony tonight, but they're kinda dating, so i figured that would be AWKWARDDD. because anthony couldn't invite anyone else. ohhh! and to make this weekend absolutely great, i went to greenville this weekend for a concert. i must say, it was pretty damn sweeet. <33 daddy- i smell weed. me- I SEEE WEEEED! heheh, i love my family


Ciao,

Emily

long time no see?

heyyy you guys <3 sooo first off, i wanted to make this amazing statement, I GOT MY CARTLIDGE OR WHATEVER PIERCED! thank God! i've beeen waiting for a while now. anyways, i think it's cute! anyways, i'm the most excited person ever. tomorrrow i'm going to an amazing concertttt<3 and tonight i'm going to the movies with fanny, anthony, and austin. ha, Lord knows what'lll happen with that? but i'm excited none the less. and omfg, i've been waiting so long to see these amazing bands in concert. THREE DOORS DOWN? THEORY OF A DEADMAN? SHINEDOWN? AND BUNCHES OF OTHERS! woooooo! this is going to be fucking sweeet. i'lll probably blog once we get to the hotel room if my mom lets me bring my laptop. or if i even have service there. ha :P my house looks like shit. too bad i don't feeel like cleaning. i really hope that my momma does the cleaning tonight. anyways. i met this guy that i've been talking to for a while last night. turns out hes short as helll man! like i'm probably a whole foot taller than him. and i don't mean to be a critique, but i don't date short guys. they make me feel ginormous. hahah, ohhh well. that's never gonna happen. another thing i dont do is date younger guys, i always should date older. says my mother. ahah. :] and yesterday i was walking around with this dude that i've kinda liked since forever, and everyone knows that. but anyways, he was acting like he liked me. it was kinda cute. but i know that he doesn't like me. i'm so.. ughh. and he's like.. not.. jeez, this is an interesting blog. i'm pretty sure that this dude i talked to a month ago is straight up gay, i saw some things in his comments, and wow. FAGFAGFAG. i don't have anything wrong with gay people whatsoever, but if you're going to say that you like me and shit, and you really don't, it aggravates me. the cutest thing ever happened in lunch today. this girl's dad has been in the navy for a while, and she hadn't seen him since christmas, so he came to the schooll. and got on the stage. then mrs. mcConnell blew a whistle, so the girl turned around, saw her dad, and started running towards him for a hug. it was ADORABLE. i cried. i'm actually a reallly sensitive person if you ever pay attention to what i am saying. i didn't even know the girl, and yet tears came out of my eyes. :( it was so.. amazing. hallmark moment, straight up.



Ciao,
Emily

helllo sarah cline!

bahah, i totallly just named a blog after you. [: i'm sure you feel loved now. anywaysss. that was definitely just a random shout out/ hello/ you're fired. I LOVE MITCHELLL DAVIS. today is frenchy's birthdayyyy. so i'm about to go to over to her house and eat some amazing crapes. they are soooooooo good, i had some with her last night. mmmm. ;]] i got fanny one of the best birthday presents she will ever get last night. condoms! cause she's a whore and i don't want a bunch of weird french kids running around everywhere. so basicallly i did you all a huge favor. everything is goood except my fucking period. i hate tom. sooo much. i'd probably be at the gym right now if it weren't for him! >.<<< fuck tom, 'nufff said. it's kinda actuallly pretty out right now. the rain reallly cleared up. hehe.. me and sarah are doing this amazing "prank type thingy?" on this girl. it's hilarious. she's such a whore. and a bitch. andddddddd a liar. and everything of that sort. i can't even believe i was ever friends with her. (and no i don't mean sarah!) just gaaaaaah. i've bloggged so much over this girl in the past month or two. there's so much to say about her. and one sad thing about it is that i don't think i have the ballls to telll her to her face.



i'm sleeepy, night loves<333



Ciao,
Emily

holyballls.

hiii :] X on the smiley because i feel like absolute shit. damn tom!!!! i was planning on going to the gym tonight, but i guess i'm too much of a pussy to go to the gym with fucking tom. i went last night anyways. i had the most AMAZING nap last night! bahhh! it was like an hour long. and it was great! then i ate some ramen nooodles. (uhh, yum.) then i went to the gym for an hour or so with my mommma. & to top it off i watched some greek and went to bed around nine. but gayyyyyy alex woke me up around 9:30 to come look at his new bike. it was 300 dollars he said. who the fuck spends that much on a 3 pound bike? i sure as hell don't! but hey, i'd rather spend that much on like a new wardrobe or something. heheh. shopping is fun<3 gah, i went to the mall errrrrryday this weekend. does that make me lame? it sure does. but idc [: but me and sara's orgasmic pretels from target were great! i'd soooo take some of them things right now. but we ate them alll. damn heifers! >.< but i probably shouldn't be eating them anyways. even though they aren't alll that bad for you at all. why do i even care? everytime i try to do something about my body it ends up being an epic fail. so i'lll just keep doing what i'm doing. but believe me, i will try, & i do try. blehh. i think i might go take a nap soon. cause american idol is on tonight and i'd hate to misss that. i love that show. but i think my mom is going to take me to dick's tonight. cause she's nice and is buying me new soffe's. :]]] i love her! bleh. know what i want? a freaking boyfriend. call me pathetic, idc. but i haven't had one since Logan.. i really loved him. but now i see where everything went wrong in that. and the douche bag even asked me what to say when you're breaking up with someone. i was like "wtf.. why" and i just knew that it was coming. although that was like in february it still kinda hurts. it was the day after valentine's day, and i could have sworn he loved me, then he just kind of did that after saying he "loved" me so much. whatever, that thing how i want a boyfriend just got me thinking. ughh, i feel sick. i'm gonna go take a nap or something.


Ciao,
Emily

ps, HAPPPY CINCO DE MAYO!

heylo <3

hiiii:] sooo, i'm sitting here in a snoopy t shirt, texting, listening to music and drinking tea.. then it hit me. i have way to much fucking drama in my life. /: sooo! how about i blog about the goood things in my life? i make good grades. i enjoy learning new things even if it takes a while to learn. i lovvvve taking long walks with just about anyone (including stewart) writing is a passion. singing is love. laughing is sooo much fun and a great way to burn calories? haha, so giggle once in a while! :] i've been in love. i enjoy cuddling. my friends are the BEST. tip top yo :DDD my family has like no problems. we all have good common sense. i'm a Christian. God's there for me. no big stresses fill my life. i love helping others. people are there for me when i need them. & just life is way to great to look at it threw the eyes of a drama queen. so how about you take your shitty little drama and move it FARaway from me? sounds great lovessss<3




Ciao,
Emily

elllllo :]

hiiii loves<3 who reads my blog? sara does! cause she's a blogger stalker! bahahah. HI SARA! YOU LOOK GORGEOUS IN THAT DRESSS AND MAKE UP :] the hair is swwwwwwwweeet. i'm jealous! anyways, that is most definitely the reason for my bloggging outrage. i take some things so seriously. maybe we were just really close? maybe it could have lead to more. but dude, he's fucking hot! and i know that maybe he isn't "boyfriend" material. my bestfriend dated him, i kinda got the point. but i'm not sure if i even like him.. i stilllll know that i like that other guy but his freaking job tangles up his time, and i'm not sure he would have the time to be with me. i'm kind of a needy kinda girl. jeeez, i'm really tired of this. i feel like a whore. i want to be in some sort of a relationship! not a sneaking around kind either, just i feeel that i'm ready for some special guy to come into my life. omfg, soooo i'm absolutely loving my outfit right now. sorrry, random but i'm seriously done with talking about boys for this blog <3 my world does not revolve around them, sorry. & i'm tired of bitches, girl you know who you are and you need to seriously stop making shit up about me. i'm rubber, you're glue, everything you say to me bounces off and sticks to you! bahhahahahahhahaha. i fucking love superstar. i think i'm going to make sara watch it with me again when she gets home from prommm. damn, i wish i liked junior boys. but most the guys in my life just go up to sophomore year, sooo i'll go with them next year :] bahah. i'mmma go help me whoreish sister finish getting ready for prom!


Ciao,
Emily



p.s. i'lllll add more later. ;)

BAHHHHHHH

i just taught kelsey how to addd a blog!
oh my LANTA! addd more to it later, loves. <3333

Ciao,
Emily

bettterish?

tomorrrrow is fridayyyy<333333
yay, i'm so excited, because me and kelsey are going shopping for boys at the malll :] horrrrray for random flirt nights at the mall with my bffff! that book i read today was majorly amazing. i don't think i would have finished it and all my school work if i hadn't have been sick. it's ironic, realllly. i felt horrrible, and my nose is still stufffy, but whatever, i'm going to school tomorrow! tooo bad i missed art today, cause it would be my first time having it this week and realllly it's like my favorite class. cause i hattttte remediation. :/// i guess it's my fault for being stupid ? anyways.. i am pretty smart though, i'm in all the "smart" classes. but whateverrr. i'm sleeepy as a catttt. i'lll probably blog again on saturday, cause friday kelsey is sleeeping here.. and i might not even get on saturday? you never know with me. i have a boring life most the time, and i don't really have a main boy on my mind to blog about.. well i do, but i'm not sure if i'm going anywhere with him at this point, cause he's sooo caught up with his work, and his mom doesn't really let him do anything at all. but there's something that has always clicked when i was around him. so maybe things will work out? cause he supposedly "likes" me. you never knoww? night loves.<3


Ciao,
Emilyy

siccccckk

http://share.buddy4u.com/view/kids+%5B

that is the most adorable thing, everrr<3
hehe. damn, you know why i'm online at 11:51am on a thursday afternoon? hmm. i'm sick! bblllehhh. how lame is that? pretty damn lame! whatever though, i got to catch up on my reading. i read like 100 something pages? woo. i was planning on tanning today, cause i'm so white, but it's not sunny at all. it's like about to rain. shit. i'm starvinnng. i had a banana today at like 5:30 when i thought i would be going to school. but my mommma is bringing me some spaghettios in a few minutes. sooo, right now i'm watching some made. they're playing fall out boy. i'm pretty sure you all know how much i love fall out boy<3333 and music in general, it's my thingggg. i wanna be made into a rockstar, yo. geez, i sound so so so so stupid when i'm sick. byebye perfect attendence. :|| last night w2as my last catechism class. and i went to confession cause i'm going to have to do that for confirmation. sooo my gramma vroke her foot. because my grandpa was trying to pull her up and she landed on it weirdly. poooor granny. but it was funny, cause she called us and she was on pain meds. and she sounded like a drunken granny! bahaha. this is the most boring blog everrr. sorrry ya'll //: i think i'm gonna go to school again if my mom will take me.

its poetry in the making

i cannot believe i let this happen AGAIN.. i mean seriously, if you tell a friend that you like the guy your introducing you to, what do you do? you certainly don't go off and start fucking making out with them in front of you. what kind of whoreish friend would want you to go through that? i'm tired of being third wheel. i invite my friend and a guy to the movies or just to go wherever, and you like the guy, and they know, but they stilll date them!?! it's fucking hell. and i am not going to let this shit happen to me again.

trust me, i know that i like another dude too, but seriously, it still pissed me offf, and i have never looked soo horrid in my life. my face was black with makeup. and i was stuttering throughout the night while i was on the phone and IMing my true friends. i know that i'm supposed to have a date tommorrow, i KNOW that. and i don't even know if i feel like going anymore, i know i like him, but idkk. if he texts me later about it, then i may consider going. alex is my brother.. i shouldn't have this feeling about him, but in some strange way.. i do. i always have, and now he knows that. he just fucking met her and he decides to do that in front of me, when he already had thought i liked him. what a fucking bitch! gah. fmylife. fmylife, FML! i reallly don't like this whatsoever, and call me pathetic, i don't really give a shit at all. i'm righting poetry about this, it's clearing my mind, and i'm planning on using it for my project in mcConnell's class. i've been praying hard, maybe Jesus will show threw, and i hope he does, i've seen him perform a miracle before. and that's why i believe so strongly in him. once you see a miracle so greatly performed, it's hard not to. my little cousin (miracle baby) is still alive because of the 10 churches that all prayed strongly for her.

enough with that, thursday was greatttt. i stayed at school for over 12 hours, but it was still amazing. we performed our play, i was in the teen age scene. and everyone seemed to love it. i didn't forget my lines, as surprising as that may sound! and i guess we did great, cause leanna tells me now everytime i see her :]

i love the jfms drama club casttt<3333



Ciao,
Emily

fagggcomputadora.

my laptop is soooo lame. like it lets me on aim and says that i'm connected to the internet and everything, but whenever i try to click on the internet it says that theres a problem with the connection. sooo, i showed my dad, and he fixed it, but then later it broke again, and i asked if he would fix it again with the help of his friend andre, but he said "what do i look like? a member of the fucking geek squad?" blahh, so now i'm just sitting here on the shittty computer without aim and slow as molases. mine's betttterrrr///: i can't wait till it works again, but until then i guess i'm just going to be stuck with this shitty computer. there it is to the lefttt. EWWW, RIGHTTT?! i want my baby, inspiron 1525.. besides the freaking poinntt. i've been at andre's for the past two nights, and it's spring break, sooo i've been out and about. sorry for the lack of blogs? fannny's in freaking NEW YORK CITY. she's lived in america for a little over a year, and she's been to more places in america than i've been in my whole entire lifeee. /: but whatever, i'm going to st. martin this summmer, so it's gooood<333>

ciao for now loves,

emily.

life's a bitch sometimes.

true dat. trueeeeee date. -daddy. blahh. so, in the past few days, i guess you could say i changed my opinions. like, whoaaa. shaun is definitely what i thought he was. he isn't right for me in anyway. he's a liar, and a bitch. but whatever, i don't even care anymore. someone else is starting to interest me, and i'm not sure i'lll regret it or not because we're such great friends. or "brother" and "sister" but i guess i just wish we could me more than friends sometimes. blehhh. whatever, i don't know. my opinions may or may not change. i'm not sure if i want that to change or not. happpy easter, btw <3 Christ is risen. Church was greaaattt. i've missed that church, i'm thinking i'lll go back next sunday?[[[: dinnnner tonight at 5. haha, i had cereal and a frapp today, so you better believe i'm gonna heifer it down. kelsey's sleeeping over two nights in a row. we'lll probably chill with alex, and watch movies late at night. cause it's spring breakkkk 8) maybe i can finallly get a fucking tan, i glow in the dark, i swear. i realllly want to go see that hannah montana movie. it looks beast. but 17 again looks bettter! me and andre are gonnna go see it :] fannny's "papi" bought the plane tickets for st. martin! wooooooooo<333 i'm freaking excited. i freaking love sprng break, and NO ONE is going to ruin it.

fml.

he cute, ain't heee? * <33


i'm not sure if i put this in my last blog, but yesterday was shaun's birthday partyy. yyeahh, he's 16. i'm 13, whatever. anywayssss. i love his hugs. they just feel right, if you know what i mean? but i think that i acted like an idiot. like i'm usually all talkative and shit. then i was just silent. it was verrrry strange, cause i'm usually all hyper! and i dunnnno! i realllllllly like shaun, and i wish i asked guys out, because if i did, he'd be mine by now. but that's just not the kind of person i am. rawrrr. today's beeen sooo boring. i woke up, "tanned" with kelsey. it's in quotations beccause i simply do not tan at all. i burn if anything. but whatever, i'm a WHITEEE girl. asian's are lucky man, they don't have to tan. blahhh. other than that, i got home, showered and what not, then i went shopping with my sister, adri, and hannah. yayyy for sara having her license! haha, i wantt minee. but that will happen in maybe 2 and a half years.. :P oh welll, i got shaun to drive me somewhere to go with him.. hahha. :DD geeeze, i like him so much. i'm soooo sleepy. >.< i just walked stewarttt, and i was tired before, but now i'm like woooo tired. that's probably why i'm typing suckishly? innna second i gotta do my homework. shit, i really do hate homework. why do teachers even assign it on the weekends if supposedly they hated homework when they were in school too? it makes no sense to me. i got my RC test due on wednesday. i'lll probably procrasinate on that, cause i'm already mostly done with the boook. or maybe i'll make some sort of reading schedule. whatever i do, i'm definitely getting in that grade. i can't get another 0. because my mom yells at me for getting a B. yes, i simple B! rawrr. if she had some other daughter or son, she'd be pissed, cause most people would loveee to have a B. it's wayy better than failing. and my averages for the year are over a 93. so i honestly don't see why it even matters so much to her. ughh. i'm so damn tired. and i feeel a bit sick. its hot outsideee. i'm more of a cold weather person. as long as it isn't raining or windy, i'll be finee. :D i think i'm going to have some people over friday. that should be funn. :D I CUT MYSELF SHAVING. FML.

enough of my randomness.

Ciao,
Emily

i can't take it anymoree.

hello loves. <333 i'm posting about something different in life. i'm sick and tired of being sick and tired, i can tell you that much. i've cried a little to much lately. well, let's face it, alot alot. and i can't help but see things that are really false in my life. sure, he says he "loves" me. and i'm reallly into him. but Dear God, when will it start to show? i'm not even going to post the whole story on the internet. i'm smarter than that. if you know me, you'd know that. anyways. if you want to know, just talk to me about it. i'm completely crushed between two guys.. and emily anderson knows that. but no one else. me and her talked about it, and she lead me away from him, but i don't see the point in waiting forever for the guy i'm really into if he doesn't want to be with me. goshh. i get so confused at times, i swear. music has led me out of doing a few stupid things. i don't want to be known as an idiot that did a mistake that i'd take back right away. anyways. enough boy talk for this bloggg. i'm sooo freakin' jealous of emily anderson. she's going to see paul and ringo in concert tomorrow in new york. i was the one to show her the concert in the newspaper. that bitch. if i had money, i'd sooo be there. but then again i'm going to saint martin with my french girl this summmmer :D my mommma wants me to go because she's cool and she doesn't want me to miss out on a great oppertuninty like this. they don't come along alot, if you haven't noticedd. and if they did.... shit, you better believe i'd be in irelanddd<33 it's my dream to go there. wannnna take me there?!? :)) geee, today in health we were looking at pictures of bulemics and anorexics. it's grosssman. i'd rather weigh 39048 pounds and eatt then be anorexic/bulemic. i have a whole friday night ahead of me. i'll edit this shit when i get back on.

can't believe it.

I cannnnot believe that i haven't blogged in this long, so i'm plannning on doing a freakishly long one. wellll at least i'll try. :] in the past week i've gone to washington, DC with the school. it was great, but i reallly wish that andre would have been able to go. it would have been beast with her. not that it wasn't without her. but me and her have gotten a whole lot closer this year! and i love ittt. our hatred makes us, it's agreed. anyways! i absolutely fell in love with washington, DC. and it was greattt. i grew closer to some of my friends. i mean of course, i was close to them before, but that was just over the top, friendshipppp. me and kelsey's friendship didn't grow closer or farther apart though. for some reason, i just think that we are as close as we're going to get ever. & i'm great with that, she's my bestfriend, and i don't see that changing anytime soon. But for some reason, i feel that i will always trust andrea taylor more than anyone, i can straight up tell her anything, and she will openly give her opinions. Know something that's been pissing me off? people saying stuff about shaun that is definitely not true. want to say he's gay to me? go right ahead, like i give a shit. i know the truth. i reallly like him, but for some reason lately it seems like i'm getting apart from him, because we hardly get to talk, and he never calls. and when i call him, he doesn't answer. it upsets me, but oh well. if he doesn't ask me out soon, then who knows. sure, i like a few other people. but i know that i like shaun the most and i don't see us stopping to talk anytime soon. or at least i hope not, because i can see myself in the future falling in love with him. he's just that type of guy. i'm starting to write songs. i just felt like straight up saying that ya'lll so you don't freak out if i start singing them in the middle of nowhere. i'm not that bad of a singer, surprisingly. i think that i'm okay with contemperary. i can just sing and sing all alone and feel like anyone would accept me. but i haaate singing in front of people. enough with that; i'm the most pathetic person ever. i saw logan today, and i just thought of being with him again, then i thought about how wrong it would be. he is wayyy to wrong for me. i mean, sure, he's adorable. everyone knows that. but he's a totalllll jackass. and he's goood at covering it up around me, he even wrote me a song and sang it/played guitar to it. it was the most romantic thing i've ever endured. but. if you get out and hear the things that he has said about me, it's rediculous. i've heard from some people that he dated me because he thought i would have sex with him. like that would happpen this early. i had my fucking first kiss with him. soo, i have no clue what he was thinking! random thought*i'm gettting my bangs again todayyy. haha, finallly, they've grown out way too long. i have a sudden urge to shop. i'm so sleeepy though. and i have church latttterrr. Some people annoy me like none other., they can speak their opinions, yeah sure. but if they're saying stuff that is deffinitely not true, and they're sooo confident they're right. its laaaame. like don't talk shit about obama, he's the president. i don't care if you say stuff about him. we all know that if he was white; you wouldn't even be saying it in the first placee! please stop calling me a whore? if you know me, you'd know the truth is that i'm not a whore. i mean sure, there's plenty of guys out there that i'd make out with. but nothing more at this age. and truely, i've kissed one guy! maybe i sound lame? but i don't care, honestly. fannny is the cooolest. her and her family invited me to go with them to martinique this summmer (french island in carribean sea) i mean, it sounds beastttt. but i don't think my momma is going to let me go, because she's sooo gay.

Dear God, please help me find a way in this world. Help me lead others in your path, and forgive me my sins. Amen.





Love,

Emily

foreverrr.

shiiiiiiit, i haven't blogged in foreverrr! so much has happened in the past few weeks. I'm happy to say that i'm 100% over Logan. I'm now "talking" to an amazing guy. I mean, sure, we haven't exactly MET yet. /: butttt, from what i heard about him from andrea and brianna, i'm pretty sure he's the right guy for me, i think we'll date soon? and i think i might fall in love with him in time? all i know is now i'm reallllly into him, its almost crazy. There's a bit of an age difference. he's a sophomore, and i'm an 8th grader. but that doesn't bother me and he said that it doesn't bother him. I know that he's friends with all girls, and people usually don't say the best things about him. but seriously, i don't give a shit. i know the truth, and that's all that matters. ughhh; today i was gonna get a great chance to meet him. but my mom said no! i was like "you bitchhh!"
welll, i didn't actually say that to my mother, but i definitely should've. bahaha. i have to write a letter to the bishop hoolalala tonight. his last name is like CRAZYYYY. but hey, that's okay! and after i get confirmed then i'lll most likely turn baptist, but ya know what? at least i'm a PROUD christian. <3 geee, shaun the sheep is scaring me. i talk to him, and sometimes he doesn't talk back, it reallly kinda freaks me out. you never know the truth with guys. they say things they don't mean, just cause they're dickfucks with no hearts. but i just know that he is different.. ughhh, i saw my GAYGAYGAY ex today in the gym. he was trying to play basketball, he sucked balls pretty much. did you know that last year he put shit alllll over the bathroom stallls? whatta a freakin' weirdo! i held hands with a guy that touches shit and puts in on bathroom walls!!! EWWWWWWWWWWWW, weirdo! weirdo! alertttt. i think it's funny how i used to love him so much, and now it's like i see him anywhere and there is no more affection. sure i get those texts saying he wants to be friends, but to tell you the truth, me and him were never really friends, he just randomly asked me out. i said yes, and for a while it all felt right. then he had to go break my heart, but now that i think about it, i'm really glad he did. he was such a jackass to me and i wasn't going to put up with that for much longer, but i did. and i don't know why i liked him all that much! ughhh. some people i just don't like..but i guess i just have to get over myself. i found something reallly funny today in the FTF registration booklets. they misspelled "this" and put "shit" and the word after was classes. "shit classes at ford" bahahaha. go look at it, page 36; bottom left corner.


Ciao,
Emily

shun the nonbelieverrr.

i don't know why, but for some reason i felt like putting that as this blog title? hahhaaa. i miss youtube, dearly. and me and kelsey's website "grilledcheesecat" it's a beasttt[[: just sayinn'. ugh! my life is terrrribly suckish. my dad went to work this morning and returned at like 9:30pm.
this maybe normal is some familys? but i dunno. i love my dadddy and i neeed him at the house! i'm such a dadddy's girl, but i'm not ashamed, so who cares. I love being a proud Christian..
geee tonight this is sooo random, nothing exciting happened that i really want to share with the world!
i think i'm just gonnna talk to some people that make me happy and go to sleeeep.


Ciao,
Emily

my life would suck without you//:

You know that song "my life would suck with you you"? well kelly clarkson's got it right. my life sucks without him. i really believe i loved logan, and of course i still do. maybe this is just a rough patch maybe not, ughh.. i really need him, who says "i love you" right after dumping you and crushing you?! welll ya'll no who did! I feel so different. So unloved. I got my first kiss from someone who said he loved me, and I think he really did love me, just his friends aren't absultely great.
Anyways, I had a great saturday night. It was my first Valentine's day having a boyfriend... which I certainly don't have anymore. But I really feel that he still has those feelings for me, because I sure as hell can't stop thinking of him.. at least I'm not like the girl from secret life of the american teenager. But I'm definitely still a virgin. I'm not a whore like some people say I am! It's so annoying when people say that about me. Honestly, I've kissed one guy. &I'm not even with that guy anymore.. DUDE! sorrrry, i'm watching tv, but this commercial just came on for that "fired up!" movie, and I seriously wannna see it. :] Lord knows who I'll see it with but I'm most definitely seeeing it with someone. Probably kels, or maybe no one because our fucking economy. I can't do anything anymore because it costs too much and there's not alot of money.. blah! I wish I was rich, then I'd buy anything and everything. but hey! I got a better life than some people I assume..
Jesus Christ is my Saviour, he's making all of this a whole lot easier on me.. I've never felt so heartbroken and crushed. I could hardly eat today because I was soo messed up, and it's crazy. Last night I slept over at Andre's house, that was funnn :] we went on a walk and watched shallow hal & The Rugrats go to Paris. hahah! I absolutely love that movie soo much.. Anyways I'm tired and Secret Life of the American Teenager is on then i gottta read a helllalot. soo, Night!

lalalalal, i'm so messsed up.
I still love Logan and that's a fact.


Ciao,
Emily.

His "Babykinz"

Bonjour.

Know who really amazes me? God. I love how he can always find ways to make people so happy. I've learned so much from him lately. I really would love to purchase a devotional book so I could read it during the school day or just whenever to make myself a happier person. Sure Sara has one, but she bought it with her own money, and I don't really want her to feel robbed if I take it. Throughout life, you need to be strong throughout everything that happens. Sure, some people have gotten me into a lot of shit. Honestly it doesn't even surprise me anymore when I'm called up to Officer Grindstaff's office, or called up to guidance. BLOGS SAVE THEMSELVES AS YOU TYPE ON HERE. Thank God, because I definitely just typed the wrong thing and somehow it xed out. I was spazzing, hahah. :P I'm really wanting to be a pyhchiatrist. I've been helping two people over today and yesterday, one was dumped, and the other was trying to find love. Today the person trying to find love got up the courage to ask out this girl that he liked, and now they're togetger. The other person is really getting connected to Jesus in the situation, and to tell you the truth I'm really proud of her. She is turning her feelings into writing. & to tell you the truth; it's ending out quite great. Stephanie Myer would be shocked. Know who's really really really sweet? LOGAN. We've been texting since like 3:00, and before school. there was an hour break because he had guitar practice. It's amazing what that boy an do with a guitar. He said the sweetest thing when I was at the gym earlier. He was like "isn't valentine's day coming up?" and I'm like "yeahh, not this saturday, but the next." and he said "i better get saving some more cash." "why?" "You." How friggin' sweet is he? &no, I'm not napolean dynamite. ;) Ughh, so tomorow I have this thing do at Church. Something like my Confirmation name and stuff. I'm just going to use my mom's. ahaha, she suggested it, because she's awesome. I love my mom! Guess what? It's Snowing! Very whimpily, if that's a word? Everyone's spazzing, it's like hardly any snow at all. Try living in Illinois for five years, it's not all that much of a big deal anymore. I found out the most hilarious thing yesterday. It was how my dad "pruposed" to my mom. My mom was on the phone one day with her friend, Lisa. My dad walked in and gave her a ring. It took her a while to comprehend what it meant. I thought that was like the most hilarious thing ever. Well, not ever, but it definitely made my day. Ughh! I haven't blogged in so long. I still have to inform you about my weekend. Friday was spent with the fanny pack. :) (me, fanny, kelsey, and andre) We went to see the Uninvited. We ran into Emily Underwood! OMG! I miss her like crazy. :/ but we had fun on Friday, that movie was amazing. Saturday I sat around all day with the Fanny Pack and then Logan picked me up at 7:30ish, and we went to see The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. I realllly enjoyed it. Logan didn't, but he said that he just wanted to be with me. HOW SWEET? <3. When he was getting out of the car, he kissed me goodnight in front of my parents. I had a superbowl party thing Sunday. *Random fact: my dad is the same age of the super bowl. GO STEEELERS :) but yeah, Logan came over. :)along with alot of other people. We got in trouble because apparently me and logan weren't supposed to be left alone. gaygaygay. But we still enjoyed ourselves. I really should get doing my Confirmation Project.

Ciao,
Emily.

chilll. :)

hola! it's kinda early. but i had alot to blog about soo get over it. what's the definition of chill to you? for me it's sitting around in ducky pajama pants and a tank top, drinking cran-pomegrante juice, texting the boy you love, chatting away on myspace & aim, and listening to music. I'm soo chill right now. :P I just finished watching secret life like a half hour ago. that show truely amazes me. The baby is going to be a boyyy. anyways! i still haven't blogged about Saturday night when my baby came over. Yes, i'm talking about mr. logan seitz. ;) we headed up to Alex's house with kels and alex.. his sister was "watching us" but yeah! i got to make out with logan. he's got like the best lips ever and he smells amazing. he wears curve cologne. that stuff is mucho great smelling. it was a great night.. and i think he's getting his phone back soon so i won't have to text him on his family member's phones.. know what i really want to see? the uninvited. and the unborn! they both look super good. but i'll have to see both in the presence of logan. WOW LOGAN IS SUCH A BIG PART IN MY LIFE NOW!! I almost forgot that today in the hallways his ex was right behind him, so i went ahead and hugged him, and she looked at me like she was going to shoot me. it was freaking funny. my hands are about to fall asleeep, so goodnight.

Ciao,
Emily.

life=rawr.

life is shit sometimes. i can't believe that whole dilema(sp?) at school. i didn't do anything. don't get the wrong ideas. someone made a bad choice. i'm sooo glad that i didn't make the same one. i have more self respect than to do that. i love logan so much. i hope he doesn't get in too much trouble! because if he does, then i'll be like the most heart broken person ever. i'm so glad i rode the bus today. the only reason is because i got to talk to logan, and have his opinion. i also got a hugg. :) but no kiss, because i have a cold sore. :( i can't imagine how much trouble that girl is going to get in. i know that if it was me, my life would be hell. for like ever. anyways. i'm not even in trouble with that. sooo. i need plans for tomorow. i wish logan could come over. but i doubt he can, because he's going to get in trouble because he forgot to erase the picture from his phone.. and plus my parents are going somewhere. i'll probably end up doing something with fanny, alex, justin, and kelsey. aim is starting to confuse me. it's beeping like so much! AND OH MY GOSH. my dog is hilarious. i walked in the house from church last night, and he was just like sitting on my desk. i was like.. "what the hell?!" haha, *my dog is a siberian husky.. and he just kinda looked at me. i seriously wonder if he just sits there like that all day. bahahah. he is the silliest dog alive. ughh! i seriously want to talk to logan, but if i called him, then officer grindstaff would answer. and i really don't want to talk to him. hah. it's like "you definitely are not my boyfriend." i wish logan was here. oh wow.. i love that boy way too much. if that's even possible. i'm gonna go live my life and stop typing now. updates tomorow. :)_ WHAT THE HELL?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? NOW MY PARENTS WANT ME TO BREAK UP WITH LOGAN!!!!!! that's not going to happen. they can suck it. i love logan sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much.
ugh! why'd whoever told tell? not smart. nottt smart.

Ciao,
Emily

MWAH.*

it's the most amazing feeling to be in love. hehe. wowww... ;) anways! i haven't updated this is a while. it's wednesday and feels like monday, except i gotta go to church in a bit. oh my gosh. Friday was freaking amazing. i may sound like a loser for saying this, but i got my FIRST kiss. it was like the best thing everrr. ask for details if you want, because i don't feel like sharing it on here. and when logan came over on saturday, we went to blockbuster to get a movie. and we saw kelsey and andre theree. speaking of which, andre skipped school today. :P considering it was a 2 hour delay. back to my story! we rented hancock, and didn't even watch it. lmfao. we just kinda looked at eachother and talked. it was cute. and i got a goodnight kiss in my bedroom. he is the best boyfriend ever, and i love him so much.


"I love you more than imagination land could ever imagine." -Logan Seitz.

Ciao,
Emily

music=difficult.

do you know how hard it is to learn how to play the freaking piano? i keep trying, but honestly, i suckk. but who cares?i gottta double date tomorow. woooohoooo<3. heheh! i love logan seitzz..
he's freaking amazingg. we're going to the movies with kelsey and justin tomorowww.hhaha. andd... saturday he's coming over to do Lord knows what?! just chill i guessss. (:

Ciao, Emily

it's a good day. ;)

soo! i decided that immature boys piss me off. and truely they do. so i found a new boy, who makes me very happy. and oh woww. he's just so amazing to me. writing this is soo difficult,because seriously, this boy leaves me speachless. we haven't said "i love you" yet. and i'm definitely glad that we haven't, cause i don't love him quite yet, but i'm sure it could lean towards that wayy.. january 10th? hell yes.

"and i don't know how it get better then this,
you take my hand and drag me head first,
FEARLESS" -taylor swifttt. (:


Ciao,
Emily.

GUYS:oneletterawayfromgay.

i feel just like that freaking snowman cookie man! it's like the most horrible feeling ever. guys are officially ALL gay. there's only a few really good guys out there, and most of them are taken. or the good guy that you want, is apparently too immature for you. i'm not even going to say the immature thing againn. i'm tired of typing the story and sounding like a sad sap. i have a minor headache, blehhh. but i think it's from playing rockband with fanny for the last few hours. kelsey's calling. i answered. i guess me her, fanny, alex, and justin biddix have plans for the movies tommorrow! freakin' sweeet yooo(: we're gonna see the unborn. AHHHHH! lmfao. if i cry, i'm going to be like. blah! at least we got alex and justin, like they won't be scared? lol. i wish that mr. lo would want to go. but i'm not even going to invite him, because ya know what? he's freakkin' immature as helll. wait! gabriel might be coming to? omgg, my phone keeps ringing, and IM's keep coming. i feel sooo loved. (: i'm such a "people person". anyways, i'm not going to type alll nighttt.


*cookie styled by: ZORO! (haha, kelseyyy). photography by mee. lol (:

Ciao, emilyy.

blahh

yeah! i saw that guy in the halls today, and i'm forealll sorry if this guy is reading this, because i'm going to be very blunt. he only said "hey" to me. it wasn't like "heyy" well actually it was like in the middle of those two, he was disctracted with something else. and in the cafeteria, i gave him my "look" where i just kinda look at someone and give them this innocent look on my face, he looked at me as if to say "what?" i'll write more laterr.


ciao. (:

immature, much?

why do guys have to be sooo immature sometimes?! it's really annoying. you can't like the guy without them making some hugee deal over it. and i'm pretty sure you know exactly who i'm talking about. i like them, so they have to completely ignore me? hell no. that's not how i roll sorry. if i message you saying something really important to me, i expect you to message me back. i don't give a crap what you say, just say something, it's way better then nothing. that nine year old with a guide to girls, is definitely smart. if he lived around here, i'd probably date him. i don't give a crap about their age (i like a 7th grader and other peoplee.) as long as they're mature and don't run from me. WAKE UP PEOPLE. IT'S NOT PRESCHOOL, IT'S MIDDLE SCHOOL, I THINK IT'S TIME TO GROW UP!