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considering its been over a month since i last blogged, i figured i'd catch you guys up on a few things. hai hiii, i'm emily. in the past month i have. been cheated on. been dumped over fucking FACEBOOK. that's right. he didn't even have the nerve to let me know we were over. just decided to let me and the whole rest of the world know by changing his relationship status to "single." he was trying to get with one of my bestfriends that live in georgia the whole time we were dating. and went on a date with some awkward bitch. fuckkkk that. :P I'm so over it, it's crazy :) i'm quite enjoying the single life. like i was able to hang with my first love again the other night. He's the most amazing thing that's ever happened to me. and we're going to try to keep it on being "just BESTfriends." but that's going to be rather hard to deal with considering we made out in the play thingy at hickory dickory dockk. oh well. i'm no slut. and he kissed me goodnight at my house. cutest thing ever. i've missed that boy being in my life. we both don't want to be in a relationship, and i don't want to fall for him again. so i'm pretty sure we're going to be keeping it with friends with benefits. ha. whatever :) he's so preshhhh. my life feels like it's been taken over by theatre lately. don't get me wrong, i love the class. i love the people in it. i love the teacher. but i'm really getting sick of showing up to class at 830 in the morning over a break. it just seems absolutely ridiculous. so. excuse me bitch! stop trying to talk shit and say i hate everyone in it! fuck you! why the fuck would i be in the class if i hated it? dumb bitch.

i have theatre tomorrow. me & joshua are going to bojangles @ 830 am.
nighhhht :)

lame.

i saw HIM yesterday for the first time since he broke my heart. my heart hurts.
i miss being with him. my heart wants him back. i love him.
but i was with another guy trying to get over him when i saw him. i hadn't seen him in at least 3 months. i'm falling apart.
i need him.


i love you<3

hey.

i'm giving up. i said i would a month ago. but i'm weak. i miss talking to him. he was the sweetest and probably one of the best things that had ever happened to me. he was the only guy that i really ever "talked" to, without them saying something about having sex with me. i'm 14 years old. sex isn't something i look for in a relationship. i look for people that don't do that. but eventually you realize, that's all that guys want from you. i'm tired of trying to be taken over by some dick. i don't want to get hurt.
anyways. alex did this really lame thing today. it probably made my day. i got a text from emily saying "omg, alex got snakebites?" so i texted him saying "snakebites.. really? " i called them fake and whatnot, so he got pissed and told me to go up to his house so he could prove they were real. so i did. they were fucking paper clips. he's a dumbass. :] so i took a picture with my hoops in my mouth, to look all lame like him.
i got to hang out with my bestfriend this weekend (: i missed her!

time for homework and sleep.
joy



ciao,
emily

herrrow

ayyye. i know that i havent blogged in such a long time. i've just had really nothing to blog about lately. well. i guess a little TOO much to blog about. like 4 weeks ago, phillip decided he was done talking to me. that hurt me pretty bad. me and him.. sure. we never dated. but we "talked" and acted like we were dating for like 3 months. i miss it. i miss him. he is without a doubt the best kisser there is. i saw him sunday when i was crossing the road to the mall. me and andrea were walking. and he was in the car that let us pass. he put his head out the sunroof and screamed my name. it was pretty cute. lmfao. but that was the first thing he had tried to say to me since we stopped talking. his voice is like the sex. hahah! wooo! enough phillip. i'm done trying with him. what we had was special. he ruined it. when we were together and alone? it was magical. in front of people? he didnt know me. it was like he was so ashamed to be seen with me. i hated it. anyways. i kissed the first person since him on friday. it was nice. very nice. he's a pretty good kissser. but there wasnt sparks like with phillip. i need to just find a nice guy. and start a relationship. being single is nice. but i want to be in a real relationship again. its going to be pretty tough. because this weekend i was sick. i had a high fever and lots of like neck pain and shit. idk. it was awful. now i have fever blisters. lots of them. I DONT HAVE FUCKING HERPES, SO STOP SAYING THAT YOU FUCKING BITCH. haha. totally just throwing that out there. because i really hate walking in the halls and hearing some whore that i dont talk to whispering to some girl i've never met "OH MY GODDDDDD EMILY NELSON HAS HERPESSS. SHE GOT IT FROM JAKEEEEPIERCE!" i kissed jake. kay. doesnt mean he gave me herpes you bitch. its spirit week. i dont have much spirit for this godforsaken school.

go2sleep<3

ciao,
emily

love

you are the most amazing thing under the sun
you tore my life apart to the extremity
you made me feel desireless,
and without heart.
you made me feel without a doubt love.
i miss our love sweetheart. i miss you.
come and bring back your passionate romance
and silliness that made me fall ever so deep
i miss you. i want you. i need you.
come back to me.


(P.S. i will blog more tomorrow or something. i'm just super tired.)

passionate.

yesterday, i went to the movies with philllip. then we went to best buy and played rockbandd. afterwards we went to the mall. he kissed me. it was so passionate and wonderful. & damn, there were many to come, and more to happen in the future. i was his first kiss since march. he is the best kisser. ever. end of story. (: i can honestly tell you that i do love him. a whole lot. <3

my phone is really starting to frustrate (sp since school's been out) me. the 8 button hardly works when i want to text. sooo just to inform you, if we're texting and i don't include something that is on the 8 button, don't have a cow, it's not my fault. jusssaying.

today me and andrea went shopping for a long ass time. but i think i'm going to go again tomorrow with fanny, because i didnt spend my money, and i want more clothes :] tonight we had orientation. i'm kinda mad that i have two classes with the biggest douche bag ever, but fuck it. at least i have classes with some of my bestfriends tooo, so it's all good.


Ciao,
Emily

shit.

so lately, i don't know what's gotten into me.. my stress level has gone threw the roof. and it seems as if everyone is out to get me. i haven't gone a day without crying in Lord know's when. last night was amanda's party. suppppper fun. but afterwards. ugh. let's put it this way, i hate hate hate guys. they're stupid. immature. nonunderstanding. BASTARDS. who the fuck asks the girl he's "talking" to advice on another girl? no one! thats what i thought too. i hate how when someone says "i love you" they don't mean it. i've really started to scare myself.. i need a hug.. i need to know that somebody out there cares.

anyways. today was very fun. i went to wilson's creek with my momma, and kelsey. mommy slipped on a rock and now is in urgent care getting stiches. i laughed when she fell. then i saw blood pouring out and i cried. scary? yes.

Tonight i'm sleeping over at nicola's. then tomorrow i'm going to kelsey's for the night.

i honestly think something is wrong with me. i'm scared.

Ciao,
Emily