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tomorrrrow is fridayyyy<333333
yay, i'm so excited, because me and kelsey are going shopping for boys at the malll :] horrrrray for random flirt nights at the mall with my bffff! that book i read today was majorly amazing. i don't think i would have finished it and all my school work if i hadn't have been sick. it's ironic, realllly. i felt horrrible, and my nose is still stufffy, but whatever, i'm going to school tomorrow! tooo bad i missed art today, cause it would be my first time having it this week and realllly it's like my favorite class. cause i hattttte remediation. :/// i guess it's my fault for being stupid ? anyways.. i am pretty smart though, i'm in all the "smart" classes. but whateverrr. i'm sleeepy as a catttt. i'lll probably blog again on saturday, cause friday kelsey is sleeeping here.. and i might not even get on saturday? you never know with me. i have a boring life most the time, and i don't really have a main boy on my mind to blog about.. well i do, but i'm not sure if i'm going anywhere with him at this point, cause he's sooo caught up with his work, and his mom doesn't really let him do anything at all. but there's something that has always clicked when i was around him. so maybe things will work out? cause he supposedly "likes" me. you never knoww? night loves.<3


Ciao,
Emilyy

siccccckk

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that is the most adorable thing, everrr<3
hehe. damn, you know why i'm online at 11:51am on a thursday afternoon? hmm. i'm sick! bblllehhh. how lame is that? pretty damn lame! whatever though, i got to catch up on my reading. i read like 100 something pages? woo. i was planning on tanning today, cause i'm so white, but it's not sunny at all. it's like about to rain. shit. i'm starvinnng. i had a banana today at like 5:30 when i thought i would be going to school. but my mommma is bringing me some spaghettios in a few minutes. sooo, right now i'm watching some made. they're playing fall out boy. i'm pretty sure you all know how much i love fall out boy<3333 and music in general, it's my thingggg. i wanna be made into a rockstar, yo. geez, i sound so so so so stupid when i'm sick. byebye perfect attendence. :|| last night w2as my last catechism class. and i went to confession cause i'm going to have to do that for confirmation. sooo my gramma vroke her foot. because my grandpa was trying to pull her up and she landed on it weirdly. poooor granny. but it was funny, cause she called us and she was on pain meds. and she sounded like a drunken granny! bahaha. this is the most boring blog everrr. sorrry ya'll //: i think i'm gonna go to school again if my mom will take me.

its poetry in the making

i cannot believe i let this happen AGAIN.. i mean seriously, if you tell a friend that you like the guy your introducing you to, what do you do? you certainly don't go off and start fucking making out with them in front of you. what kind of whoreish friend would want you to go through that? i'm tired of being third wheel. i invite my friend and a guy to the movies or just to go wherever, and you like the guy, and they know, but they stilll date them!?! it's fucking hell. and i am not going to let this shit happen to me again.

trust me, i know that i like another dude too, but seriously, it still pissed me offf, and i have never looked soo horrid in my life. my face was black with makeup. and i was stuttering throughout the night while i was on the phone and IMing my true friends. i know that i'm supposed to have a date tommorrow, i KNOW that. and i don't even know if i feel like going anymore, i know i like him, but idkk. if he texts me later about it, then i may consider going. alex is my brother.. i shouldn't have this feeling about him, but in some strange way.. i do. i always have, and now he knows that. he just fucking met her and he decides to do that in front of me, when he already had thought i liked him. what a fucking bitch! gah. fmylife. fmylife, FML! i reallly don't like this whatsoever, and call me pathetic, i don't really give a shit at all. i'm righting poetry about this, it's clearing my mind, and i'm planning on using it for my project in mcConnell's class. i've been praying hard, maybe Jesus will show threw, and i hope he does, i've seen him perform a miracle before. and that's why i believe so strongly in him. once you see a miracle so greatly performed, it's hard not to. my little cousin (miracle baby) is still alive because of the 10 churches that all prayed strongly for her.

enough with that, thursday was greatttt. i stayed at school for over 12 hours, but it was still amazing. we performed our play, i was in the teen age scene. and everyone seemed to love it. i didn't forget my lines, as surprising as that may sound! and i guess we did great, cause leanna tells me now everytime i see her :]

i love the jfms drama club casttt<3333



Ciao,
Emily

fagggcomputadora.

my laptop is soooo lame. like it lets me on aim and says that i'm connected to the internet and everything, but whenever i try to click on the internet it says that theres a problem with the connection. sooo, i showed my dad, and he fixed it, but then later it broke again, and i asked if he would fix it again with the help of his friend andre, but he said "what do i look like? a member of the fucking geek squad?" blahh, so now i'm just sitting here on the shittty computer without aim and slow as molases. mine's betttterrrr///: i can't wait till it works again, but until then i guess i'm just going to be stuck with this shitty computer. there it is to the lefttt. EWWW, RIGHTTT?! i want my baby, inspiron 1525.. besides the freaking poinntt. i've been at andre's for the past two nights, and it's spring break, sooo i've been out and about. sorry for the lack of blogs? fannny's in freaking NEW YORK CITY. she's lived in america for a little over a year, and she's been to more places in america than i've been in my whole entire lifeee. /: but whatever, i'm going to st. martin this summmer, so it's gooood<333>

ciao for now loves,

emily.

life's a bitch sometimes.

true dat. trueeeeee date. -daddy. blahh. so, in the past few days, i guess you could say i changed my opinions. like, whoaaa. shaun is definitely what i thought he was. he isn't right for me in anyway. he's a liar, and a bitch. but whatever, i don't even care anymore. someone else is starting to interest me, and i'm not sure i'lll regret it or not because we're such great friends. or "brother" and "sister" but i guess i just wish we could me more than friends sometimes. blehhh. whatever, i don't know. my opinions may or may not change. i'm not sure if i want that to change or not. happpy easter, btw <3 Christ is risen. Church was greaaattt. i've missed that church, i'm thinking i'lll go back next sunday?[[[: dinnnner tonight at 5. haha, i had cereal and a frapp today, so you better believe i'm gonna heifer it down. kelsey's sleeeping over two nights in a row. we'lll probably chill with alex, and watch movies late at night. cause it's spring breakkkk 8) maybe i can finallly get a fucking tan, i glow in the dark, i swear. i realllly want to go see that hannah montana movie. it looks beast. but 17 again looks bettter! me and andre are gonnna go see it :] fannny's "papi" bought the plane tickets for st. martin! wooooooooo<333 i'm freaking excited. i freaking love sprng break, and NO ONE is going to ruin it.

fml.

he cute, ain't heee? * <33


i'm not sure if i put this in my last blog, but yesterday was shaun's birthday partyy. yyeahh, he's 16. i'm 13, whatever. anywayssss. i love his hugs. they just feel right, if you know what i mean? but i think that i acted like an idiot. like i'm usually all talkative and shit. then i was just silent. it was verrrry strange, cause i'm usually all hyper! and i dunnnno! i realllllllly like shaun, and i wish i asked guys out, because if i did, he'd be mine by now. but that's just not the kind of person i am. rawrrr. today's beeen sooo boring. i woke up, "tanned" with kelsey. it's in quotations beccause i simply do not tan at all. i burn if anything. but whatever, i'm a WHITEEE girl. asian's are lucky man, they don't have to tan. blahhh. other than that, i got home, showered and what not, then i went shopping with my sister, adri, and hannah. yayyy for sara having her license! haha, i wantt minee. but that will happen in maybe 2 and a half years.. :P oh welll, i got shaun to drive me somewhere to go with him.. hahha. :DD geeeze, i like him so much. i'm soooo sleepy. >.< i just walked stewarttt, and i was tired before, but now i'm like woooo tired. that's probably why i'm typing suckishly? innna second i gotta do my homework. shit, i really do hate homework. why do teachers even assign it on the weekends if supposedly they hated homework when they were in school too? it makes no sense to me. i got my RC test due on wednesday. i'lll probably procrasinate on that, cause i'm already mostly done with the boook. or maybe i'll make some sort of reading schedule. whatever i do, i'm definitely getting in that grade. i can't get another 0. because my mom yells at me for getting a B. yes, i simple B! rawrr. if she had some other daughter or son, she'd be pissed, cause most people would loveee to have a B. it's wayy better than failing. and my averages for the year are over a 93. so i honestly don't see why it even matters so much to her. ughh. i'm so damn tired. and i feeel a bit sick. its hot outsideee. i'm more of a cold weather person. as long as it isn't raining or windy, i'll be finee. :D i think i'm going to have some people over friday. that should be funn. :D I CUT MYSELF SHAVING. FML.

enough of my randomness.

Ciao,
Emily

i can't take it anymoree.

hello loves. <333 i'm posting about something different in life. i'm sick and tired of being sick and tired, i can tell you that much. i've cried a little to much lately. well, let's face it, alot alot. and i can't help but see things that are really false in my life. sure, he says he "loves" me. and i'm reallly into him. but Dear God, when will it start to show? i'm not even going to post the whole story on the internet. i'm smarter than that. if you know me, you'd know that. anyways. if you want to know, just talk to me about it. i'm completely crushed between two guys.. and emily anderson knows that. but no one else. me and her talked about it, and she lead me away from him, but i don't see the point in waiting forever for the guy i'm really into if he doesn't want to be with me. goshh. i get so confused at times, i swear. music has led me out of doing a few stupid things. i don't want to be known as an idiot that did a mistake that i'd take back right away. anyways. enough boy talk for this bloggg. i'm sooo freakin' jealous of emily anderson. she's going to see paul and ringo in concert tomorrow in new york. i was the one to show her the concert in the newspaper. that bitch. if i had money, i'd sooo be there. but then again i'm going to saint martin with my french girl this summmmer :D my mommma wants me to go because she's cool and she doesn't want me to miss out on a great oppertuninty like this. they don't come along alot, if you haven't noticedd. and if they did.... shit, you better believe i'd be in irelanddd<33 it's my dream to go there. wannnna take me there?!? :)) geee, today in health we were looking at pictures of bulemics and anorexics. it's grosssman. i'd rather weigh 39048 pounds and eatt then be anorexic/bulemic. i have a whole friday night ahead of me. i'll edit this shit when i get back on.

can't believe it.

I cannnnot believe that i haven't blogged in this long, so i'm plannning on doing a freakishly long one. wellll at least i'll try. :] in the past week i've gone to washington, DC with the school. it was great, but i reallly wish that andre would have been able to go. it would have been beast with her. not that it wasn't without her. but me and her have gotten a whole lot closer this year! and i love ittt. our hatred makes us, it's agreed. anyways! i absolutely fell in love with washington, DC. and it was greattt. i grew closer to some of my friends. i mean of course, i was close to them before, but that was just over the top, friendshipppp. me and kelsey's friendship didn't grow closer or farther apart though. for some reason, i just think that we are as close as we're going to get ever. & i'm great with that, she's my bestfriend, and i don't see that changing anytime soon. But for some reason, i feel that i will always trust andrea taylor more than anyone, i can straight up tell her anything, and she will openly give her opinions. Know something that's been pissing me off? people saying stuff about shaun that is definitely not true. want to say he's gay to me? go right ahead, like i give a shit. i know the truth. i reallly like him, but for some reason lately it seems like i'm getting apart from him, because we hardly get to talk, and he never calls. and when i call him, he doesn't answer. it upsets me, but oh well. if he doesn't ask me out soon, then who knows. sure, i like a few other people. but i know that i like shaun the most and i don't see us stopping to talk anytime soon. or at least i hope not, because i can see myself in the future falling in love with him. he's just that type of guy. i'm starting to write songs. i just felt like straight up saying that ya'lll so you don't freak out if i start singing them in the middle of nowhere. i'm not that bad of a singer, surprisingly. i think that i'm okay with contemperary. i can just sing and sing all alone and feel like anyone would accept me. but i haaate singing in front of people. enough with that; i'm the most pathetic person ever. i saw logan today, and i just thought of being with him again, then i thought about how wrong it would be. he is wayyy to wrong for me. i mean, sure, he's adorable. everyone knows that. but he's a totalllll jackass. and he's goood at covering it up around me, he even wrote me a song and sang it/played guitar to it. it was the most romantic thing i've ever endured. but. if you get out and hear the things that he has said about me, it's rediculous. i've heard from some people that he dated me because he thought i would have sex with him. like that would happpen this early. i had my fucking first kiss with him. soo, i have no clue what he was thinking! random thought*i'm gettting my bangs again todayyy. haha, finallly, they've grown out way too long. i have a sudden urge to shop. i'm so sleeepy though. and i have church latttterrr. Some people annoy me like none other., they can speak their opinions, yeah sure. but if they're saying stuff that is deffinitely not true, and they're sooo confident they're right. its laaaame. like don't talk shit about obama, he's the president. i don't care if you say stuff about him. we all know that if he was white; you wouldn't even be saying it in the first placee! please stop calling me a whore? if you know me, you'd know the truth is that i'm not a whore. i mean sure, there's plenty of guys out there that i'd make out with. but nothing more at this age. and truely, i've kissed one guy! maybe i sound lame? but i don't care, honestly. fannny is the cooolest. her and her family invited me to go with them to martinique this summmer (french island in carribean sea) i mean, it sounds beastttt. but i don't think my momma is going to let me go, because she's sooo gay.

Dear God, please help me find a way in this world. Help me lead others in your path, and forgive me my sins. Amen.





Love,

Emily