shit.

so lately, i don't know what's gotten into me.. my stress level has gone threw the roof. and it seems as if everyone is out to get me. i haven't gone a day without crying in Lord know's when. last night was amanda's party. suppppper fun. but afterwards. ugh. let's put it this way, i hate hate hate guys. they're stupid. immature. nonunderstanding. BASTARDS. who the fuck asks the girl he's "talking" to advice on another girl? no one! thats what i thought too. i hate how when someone says "i love you" they don't mean it. i've really started to scare myself.. i need a hug.. i need to know that somebody out there cares.

anyways. today was very fun. i went to wilson's creek with my momma, and kelsey. mommy slipped on a rock and now is in urgent care getting stiches. i laughed when she fell. then i saw blood pouring out and i cried. scary? yes.

Tonight i'm sleeping over at nicola's. then tomorrow i'm going to kelsey's for the night.

i honestly think something is wrong with me. i'm scared.

Ciao,
Emily