bloggging makes you find alot of wrongs in your "right" life. i feel like i'm losing everyone in my life. yes, i've become closer with old aqautinces. but i miss my friends. i miss being able to have someone that is always there for me. i'm losing one of my closest friends. not by choice. but by force. fuck moving.. i love you emily, and i really will miss you. we shall chill before you leave. i hate how emotional i've become. i hate how i keep in how i feel. i hate how i have to go online and read someone's blog to see how they feel about me and our friendship. yes, that was aimed towards kelsey. i really miss my bestfriend. how? i haven't seen her in two weeks. we usually live together. i hate how people call me "preppy". i hate how i will never be comfortable in my own skin. i hate most of fucking all how i can blog about this shit, and i act like i'm fine cause i know people have it worse all around me.
anyways. i'm done with my hate shit. i really want just a hug. i got so many tonight from an amazing guy. that yes, i reallly do like. his friends are douche's. but who cares? his friends aren't him. he's about the cutest sweetest thing, and he likes me. :] tomorrow i think i get to see him again. hehe. fanny got home today. yayyyy frenchy. she got me a bunch of hello kitty stufff from china town. i want alexxx to come home >.< damn ohio! yesterday was my miracle cousin's birthday. thank God for life. she is my one true miracle that proved there is a God for me. yes, before i had doubts. is there a problem with that? i have no problem with somebody being agnostic, you have your opinions, i'll have mine. just don't try to change me, it simply will not work.
i hate how people think i've become someone different than myself.
i think i know who i am.
Ciao,
Emily
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