i can't take it anymoree.

hello loves. <333 i'm posting about something different in life. i'm sick and tired of being sick and tired, i can tell you that much. i've cried a little to much lately. well, let's face it, alot alot. and i can't help but see things that are really false in my life. sure, he says he "loves" me. and i'm reallly into him. but Dear God, when will it start to show? i'm not even going to post the whole story on the internet. i'm smarter than that. if you know me, you'd know that. anyways. if you want to know, just talk to me about it. i'm completely crushed between two guys.. and emily anderson knows that. but no one else. me and her talked about it, and she lead me away from him, but i don't see the point in waiting forever for the guy i'm really into if he doesn't want to be with me. goshh. i get so confused at times, i swear. music has led me out of doing a few stupid things. i don't want to be known as an idiot that did a mistake that i'd take back right away. anyways. enough boy talk for this bloggg. i'm sooo freakin' jealous of emily anderson. she's going to see paul and ringo in concert tomorrow in new york. i was the one to show her the concert in the newspaper. that bitch. if i had money, i'd sooo be there. but then again i'm going to saint martin with my french girl this summmmer :D my mommma wants me to go because she's cool and she doesn't want me to miss out on a great oppertuninty like this. they don't come along alot, if you haven't noticedd. and if they did.... shit, you better believe i'd be in irelanddd<33 it's my dream to go there. wannnna take me there?!? :)) geee, today in health we were looking at pictures of bulemics and anorexics. it's grosssman. i'd rather weigh 39048 pounds and eatt then be anorexic/bulemic. i have a whole friday night ahead of me. i'll edit this shit when i get back on.